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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2015|07:52 am]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |okayokay]

Good morning, internet!
  • Lesson from a holiday following a work weekend: even if I'm very tired, it is still better and ultimately less tiring to get up early and get going. All-day sweatpants are not my friend.
  • I really like the new department lab set up. There are excellent chairs that are huge and comfy, and are proving to be an ideal place to hang out in the morning. I actually get some writing done! Often. Sometimes.
  • Along the same lines, I've been getting up at 6 with the Roommate and leaving the house when he does. This has improved my day immeasurably. I haven't quite adjusted to the need to get to bed by ideally 9:30, 10 at a stretch, but the mornings are lovely. This morning, Roommate decided that it was a great morning to stretch! So there was stretching, and lo, it was good.
  • I also really like the idea of sorting through one's possessions and only keeping the ones that give one joy. (as here) Unfortunately, I'm having a difficult time distinguishing between for instance clothing that does not bring me joy, and anhedonia. Curse you, depression.
And now, homework.
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n things make a post [Jan. 21st, 2015|12:24 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
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[mood |tiredbras are overrated]

  1. Hi internet! I think there isn't very much internet reading this right now, but there is maybe a little bit?
  2. I have bronchitis. This is exactly as much fun as it sounds.
  3. I did change my journal name. Just cause.
  4. I got sent home from my internship this morning because apparently hospitals prefer that you not come to work when you have bronchitis.
  5. That's all I got. Just wanted to say hey.
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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2012|11:45 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |sleepysleepy]

Hi interwebs!

Kinda sorta testing posting from my new Kindle Fire. A list of happy things:


  • The company with whom I've been doing filming at ballroom competitions is interested in hiring me more. This means that I get a free trip to work City Lights in San Jose at the end of the month, and possibly to other comps in the future. It's not super consistent work, maybe one comp a month, but the pay doesn't suck and it's twelve-hour days, so it will be a welcome infusion of cash.
  • The holidays did not suck. This was only moderately shocking -- with parents splitting, home seemed like a bad place to be, so I stayed here in Claremont. Hung out with people, went dancing on Christmas Day and New Year's weekend, baked things and ate tasty food, and generally behaved like a grown up.
  • My room is clean enough that I can vacuum it with little additional effort. No having to pick tons of stuff up off the floor.
  • Neil and I are no longer on a break. We are slowly building our relationship back up, with hopes that going slow-like will help in the building a stronger, longer-lasting relationship that's healthier and more supportive for both of us. We're going on a date tomorrow! And I am excited.


So those are some things. There are other, more mixed things going on, but I'm opting to focus on the positive at this moment.
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2011|11:52 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
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[mood |workingworking]

So I'm going to be unemployed after June 1. My parents will likely be looking to sell their house, so I kind of want to go back and take care of my stuff. I could fly to North Carolina, but I was sort of thinking that taking a road trip would be more awesome, and it's unlikely that I'll have a month free in the nearish future to do this sort of thing. I think it could be a really cool opportunity to see interesting bits of the country, and also to do a shit ton of self-reflection.

The stops I'm currently thinking of hitting go something like:

Pasadena
Grand Canyon (via Vegas)
Atlanta (via Albuquerque, Amarillo, Tulsa, Memphis)
NC
Charlottesville
Cincinnati (via Charleston, WV?)
Chicago
Jackson, WY (probably, depending on whether my cousin is around; via vast expanses of not a whole lot)
Seattle (via same, plus potatoes)
San Francisco (via Portland, something else in Oregon?)
Pasadena

It would take about a month. I would probably leave mid-June. There would be much couch surfing, and probably camping, depending on how stupid an idea that would end up being. I haven't really asked around to see when/if people will be where I expect them to be, but I'm obviously quite flexible. I would probably want to budget an extra day in San Francisco, Seattle, Atlanta, maaaybe Charlottesville -- there are a couple of short drives on either side, but I don't want to short that visit -- Chicago, and possibly Portland, and three or four days in NC. Chicago is potentially unnecessary; the last time I was there was when I was about eight, but I'm sure there will be other opportunities to visit it. Weather obviously a problem, but there's not much I can do about summer break being during the summer.

Comments on feasibility, esp. from people like [personal profile] quartzpebble and avhn who've done the drivey thing before, most welcome. I've done the Cary-Charlottesville and Pasadena-San Francisco legs before with minimal issue. Pasadena-San Francisco took me about 7.5 hours (total, not just driving), and I felt like I probably had another hour or so in me. My car is comfy and awesome, and I just discovered that it has ninja cup holders. With the right music, pushing for mileage is not a problem. Is car camping a bad idea? I'll be broke. I mean, not broke, but living on savings, which is sort of the same thing.

So yeah. Thoughts?
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Weekend in bullet points [Apr. 4th, 2011|11:07 am]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |optimisticoptimistic]


  • The dance show went really well (WCS routine with Neil). Practice was... excruciating, and Thursday dress was only okay, but the performances were great, and people really enjoyed it. We survived!
  • Standard practice was really good yesterday. We took some of the things from our lesson last Tuesday and actually applied them to our routines, and made our lines sections a lot better. I am going to miss having this particular partner when he leaves at the end of the year, but I'm really glad we've been able to work together as we have. I'm such a better dancer than I was when we started it's not even funny.
  • Then I went bouldering. I'm not feeling it in my forearms or fingers as much as I was right after, but my shoulders are sore and opening doors is hard. I may have tripped and bought a monthly membership to Hangar 18. It was only 26 dollars! If I go twice during April it will be worth it! Bouldering is difficult, but still new enough to not be frustrating, so I can focus on learning this New Thing without wanting to bite something.
  • I like my outfit today, which is slightly shocking because I thought I was out of work clothes as of last Friday, and I forgot to do laundry yesterday. Bottom line, I feel super cute, and I blame it mostly on these shoes.


Apparently deciding to quit my job makes everything better!
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(no subject) [Mar. 5th, 2011|06:35 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |contentbored but happy]

A happy post!

It was very laundry day today -- no clean jeans, or undershirts, or bras that I like. Problematic. I decided to be a little experimental, and wear a skirt that I haven't worn forever with a pair of tights that I haven't worn at all (I may be OD'ing on fashion blogs a little...). Sports bra, threadless t-shirt, good to go.

But then! I went on a bit of closet cleaning spree. Skirts that I didn't see myself wearing ever went, and a few other shirts. There's an H&M vest that I got at some point that I liked, but stopped wearing because I thought it felt too tight, or something. I tried it on to see if it was in fact too tight...

... and realized that I was wearing an outfit.

IMG_9091


I will probably never make an outfit post ever again, but felt the need to let the internet know that I can wear clothes that make me feel awesome.
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(no subject) [Feb. 4th, 2011|06:17 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |tiredtired]

Look, it's a procrastinatory impulse!

  • I would very much like to be a pet owner again. I miss having a furry being around. If I had a dog, we could do obedience classes! Which I think would be awesome. And if I had a cat, I would have something to sit on me while I'm on the couch and look at me disdainfully when I fail to be sufficiently interesting. Boo, roommate allergies. Boo, habits that mean I'm not home all that often.
  • This is probably (hopefully?) going to be my last cycle with the office. I'm not good enough at this to not be choosing between self-care and getting my job done, which is Not On. I haven't given notice or anything, but am definitely anticipating not drawing a paycheck after this summer.
  • I really, really want my own place. I'm so tired of living in other people's places. I don't want to feel like I have to clean several pots and the stove if I want to make bloody macaroni and cheese. I don't want to live with someone who has to be told to not leave food out on the counter or how to properly operate the garbage disposal. I am done. I will also likely not be drawing a paycheck soon, see above, so these two are probably not compatible.
  • Am slowly adjusting to the idea that it's probably better for me right now if I don't talk to my parents all that often. It is exhausting, and means that I'm capable of doing much less than otherwise, and that's not a good thing when I'm running so far behind at work. This does not make me a bad daughter. I think.
  • I really want to downsize all my stuff. There's something very attractive about the idea of all of my possessions potentially fitting into my car. This will probably never happen because I am excessively sentimental, but I'm working on getting rid of some clothing, at least. It's a start! And I'm forming tentative plans for a t-shirt quilt, so I can have some of the shirts that I never wear but don't want to throw away take up less space.
  • Right now, I'm massively burnt out on doing anything. I have very little in the way of extra resources to deal with parts of life that aren't immediate and need to be dealt with now. This is part of what's making me bad at my job at the moment. This is part of why I think I need some time to be unemployed for a while, to relearn what makes me happy. I went straight from Mudd to an admissions office, and have thus far spent most of my time there being stressed. I would like to stop feeling like I am terrible at everything I try to do. It would be nice.

Bonus: what sort of academic program would deal most with studying people? Partly in the psychology sense, let's poke people and/or their brains and see why things twitch and why we do what we do, but also in the sense of examining how we interact with each other and our communities, and how those communities interact. I think? Something like that. It's difficult to pin down, which makes it harder to figure out what sorts of directions I might want to be looking in. I did not study any of this in school, which is problematic. I frequently think I might have been happier as oh, say, a Pomona student.

Anyway, back to the salt mines file reading. I'm actually doing pretty okay, I'm just ready to be done.
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Further Note to Self [Oct. 19th, 2010|09:01 pm]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |okayokay]

Life is much better when I do moving stuff. Like today, for instance: it sucked. Then I dragged myself to the "Fitness Center," did Week 1, Day 1 of the Couch to 5K program, and it is suddenly better. And I have energy! Although of an extremely undirected sort. I will attempt to use it to be productive.

This has been one of the most difficult weeks of ever. I won't say worst; I've been collecting a lot of useful lessons to meditate on in a useful way. Said lessons have been obtained in rather painful ways, though. Overall, I'm really glad that I took this job, and I think I will be a better person for it. Mudd's Admission Office will probably even survive. *ahem*

In other news, Firehouse Subs appears to put honey-baked ham on their Italian subs. It tastes a little sweet, and I'm guessing that's why.
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Note to self: [Oct. 14th, 2010|12:27 am]
Small Lizardy Thing
[mood |satisfiedsatisfied]

It's shocking how much better I feel when I have a little unstructured free time to myself. I ended up leaving work after lunch, because I was being aggressively unproductive in the morning despite a couple of deadlines that I know I have to work on and I could feel my mental state going downhill. I believe the phrase I used was "a couple of days from hysterical laughter."

At home, I:

  • watched three episodes of Castle
  • knitted some
  • finally unpacked my suitcase that has been sitting in the middle of my floor since a week and a half ago OMG
  • took a three-hour nap
  • finally put the shirt that has been sitting downstairs for over a month in the laundry


I actually feel awake and wanting to do things for the first time in a while. Inconvenient, at 12:30 am, but I'm hoping some of this feeling will transfer to tomorrow, at which point I need to schedule all the travel for my Florida trip that I'm leaving for on Saturday and should have finished last week sometime ahahaha.
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(no subject) [Feb. 23rd, 2010|01:17 am]
Small Lizardy Thing
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[mood |awakeawake]



  • Have started using Chrome because of 1) HTML5 on YouTube, and 2) Firefox is a giant memory hog. I leave my browser up for extended periods of time, and it's not uncommon for me to see 500,000 K of memory usage. I decided that was maybe not ideal.

  • Awesome weekend. I did dumb things with my schedule, but I think they were worth it, and I'm almost at 100 files anyway. I need to count to make super sure, but I'm at near 60 2nds and just over 30 1sts. I think. I need to start bringing more files home.

  • Life doesn't suck. Work is hard, but it's a job I'm enjoying a lot, and that is making me reconsider my goals for the next few years. Neil is kind of awesome, in many awesome ways. I'm getting to dance an amount that seems to be appropriate to my schedule right now. I wish I had a little more free time, so that I could unpack my stuff, but this is pretty good.

  • Have to take bus in the morning. Have gotten very spoiled with carpool. Not looking forward to it.

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